I finally decided to write my first post or just to write that I will post it. I will decide after I finish writing it.
You see, I am nervous about writing and letting others read it, yet I am convinced that I would like to write, rather than do anything else. After all, I was nervous and terrified (and still am a little bit) about speaking in front of an audience, yet I did it so many times and pretty well, I might add.
I am Olivia and I am currently raising my 1 and a half year old son, it is almost 11 PM and I feel that this is what I have to do: write.
Sometime ago, I found that writing (for myself, that is) has always helped me achieve a state of balance, calmness and clarity. Those who know me well might say that I haven’t been writing enough and they would be right. Hmmm…
Only this would be the first time someone would actually read what I am writing, if I am lucky.
A little more than a year before my son was born, I moved to another city. It was at the start of the COVID pandemic. New city, zero friends, family or acquaintances. Just me, my husband and our dream to have a child.
That was then, because now it’s me, my husband and the child, our little miracle. As it turns out, pandemic, motherhood and all those sleepless nights spent at home, breastfeeding or rocking my child didn’t get me any friends in this new city.
Before moving to this city, I also cut back on some friends, partly due to a heavy schedule at work, or because of the negative energy they were passing on me, which I brought home to my then boyfriend and current husband, or because I needed to make room for the man I love ( it’s the same guy from above) . I will tell you about that in a future post.
So here I am today, in a completely new setup, one that I never envisaged ( also, a topic for another post) , because this is the fun part: never have I ever thought motherhood is so hard and that if you want to bring up an emotionally balanced and independent kid, with a high self-esteem and able to think his decisions through, I would yet again have to continue to work on myself😊
Don’t get me wrong, raising a child has priceless moments, unique for every parent and put a big smile on my face.
Yes, it is true. If I want my child to grow up like that, I will do it. What else have I got to do anyway?
As such, I am back to the board, learning, reading, applying techniques and working on myself. Then, one day a few weeks ago, I realized I have always found myself when writing, only that, to make things more challenging , this time I want to share it with you.
So, here goes.